Sunday, November 28, 2010

The City of Lights

From my tower of solitude
I look at the city of lights…

Bright, vibrant and colourful,
a pure amalgamation of hues;

Like thousand precious stones glistening
under the midnight sky.
Tempting my heart, teasing my soul
like a hundred elusive lies.

Inviting me to join them, or maybe jesting
at my self-enforced exile.

The lights tease me again,
asking me, about the one I love.
Like a distant memory she seems to me now,
and I know not, if it was ever real.

I see a stranger
walking on the street with her lover;
a happy couple they are
and have not a worry in the world.

What is this feeling,
that I sense building in me?
Is it love for her? The Stranger?
Or is it jealousy?

Is that Stranger a reminiscence of my past days?
Or does her beauty deceive my eyes?

The lights ask again,
What I could do to return to her?
I could cross the skies,
the seven seas, if only she calls for me...

Until then, I gaze at the night sky,
the moon and the stars.

And from my tower of solitude,
I look at the city of lights…

Sunday, November 21, 2010

The Vaudevillian


“…They call me a cynical soul,
one who has no heart of his own!”

“Why do you look at the flowers 
with such disdain?” They ask.

“Nay, you naïve souls, ‘tis not disdain; 
nor is it contempt,” I reply.
Darkness is the only existence,
the light, the colour, are but illusions!”


“Oh, ye cynic, cold and heartless!” they exclaim.
“Such cold a creature can never be the Lord’s creation!”

"Ha! You fools!” I laugh out loud, 
"I am not a creation of God!
The one that you worship!
I am man! Nature’s creation; the finest!

“She has bestowed upon me
powers great and mighty!
But fear me not, for I’m a part of her,
destruction of this world is not in my nature!”


“Then,” they ask, perplexed, “such cold a person you are,
yet you claim to be a poet, an artist?”

“My art is merely a subtle way
to mask my emotions, in all the splendour there is…
Though what the grandeur conceals is all but fake,
I do this all with utmost passion.”


“You are mad!” They scream in fear,
“Such crazy passions you hold so dear!
All that is created will be, one day, destroyed;
you shall be left alone; you’ll rot in a void!”


“Life’s a concoction, of health and death;
happiness and sadness…
It will go on forever, you see.
All I do, is create art of a finer degree!

“I am indeed the hero when you are the villain;
the villain when you are the hero!
Theatricality is my bane, it is my lifeblood;
without it, I am as empty as ‘zero’!

“And so concludes tonight’s performance!
This humble actor shall not live in conformance!
I take my prestige, bowing to the crescendo,
of claps and cheers; and, jeers and fears…

“…for sadly, such is my life, I think!”


A creator? An actor?
A hero? Or a villain?


...I smile…!


“Though the curtains’ a’ downed,
I shall be ever at your service!
With all due respects, sir,
I am, after all, a humble vaudevillian…!”



Tonight's performance is dedicated to a fellow actor, thinker
 and poet par excellence!
Together we create worlds through words...
...and of course, life's as vivid as it can (im)possibly be, 
for us vaudevillians!





Friday, November 19, 2010

the village


When the sunlight breaks through the night,
the village comes to life.

The person who awakens is greeted…

…with the rhythmic clang of metal on wood,
resounding from the countless handlooms;
as the weavers weave on sarees,
patterns, grand and austere.

…the smell of charcoal, and firewood,
as thakuma prepares the morning meal;
as thakurda chants the morning prayers,
praying for auspicious beginnings.

…the sweet aroma of dhup-kathi, and
the fragrance of fresh flowers, too,
lingering in the air, gladdening the heart,
relaxing the mind.

…the sound of horns blowing, bells ringing,
as cycle-rickshaws ply the main street.
The rustic vehicle, of rusted metal and wood,
stops in front of me, the man asks, ‘kothai jabe?’

Passing through the alleys and gullies-
some made of tar; the others, kuchha roads-
he stops at the banks of Bhagirathi-
the river glistening, like a thousand gems in the evening sunlight.

On the horizon there, I see the silhouette of a nouko.
It’s slender hull cutting through the water,
returning to the banks with the day’s catch
of fresh fish- rui, katla and ilish.

Back home, the evening resonates with the sound of dhak,
the haze from the dhunuchi envelops the people-
dancing to the pulsating beats of the percussionists;
their spirits lifted, their hearts gladdened.

Night comes early to the village;
the chirping of birds, bustle of people, replaced
with the sound of nocturnal creatures.

The winter chill is in the air,
as I stand on the bank of Bhagirathi,
I sense that my eyes are wet…



Glossary of Bangla words:

"thakuma"- grandmother, on the father's side.
"thakurda"- grandfather, on the father's side.
"dhup-kathi"- incense stick.
"kothai jabe"- "where would you go?"
"Bhagirathi"- a distributary of the Ganges, flowing through eastern India.
"kuchha road"- rustic, not made of tar. 
"nouko"- fishing boat.
"rui, katla and ilish"- fresh water fish, favourite among Bengalis.
"dhak"- traditional Bengali drum.
"dhunichi"- burning of dried coconut skin, husk and resin to produce smoke. 
                 It's a part of most Bengali rituals.   


Monday, November 8, 2010

The Path Through Un-lightenment


Diwali’s four days away, the market’s buzzing with activity, parents are out shopping with their children, buying firecrackers, sweets and all; and I’m sitting here, writing on my laptop, that too on back up power.
Why?
Well, the answer’s absurdly simple
Power cuts.

Unlike many of the privileged people I know, I am a victim of M.S.E.B.’s very long legacy of power cuts, or load shedding, as we popularly call it here. My oldest memory of load shedding dates back to when I was six months old. Of course, I clearly do not remember facts as they were; but my mom and grand-mom never fail to remind me of those days. (Sigh). Sixteen hours plus of no electricity, I believe. The oldest memory I very clearly remember was when my grandmother used to use her authentic, vintage 1924 kerosene lamp (not exactly 1924, but, who knows?). We used to gather around the lamp on Friday evenings; since that was the day we had ‘mega load shedding’, and do absolutely nothing. My grandmother occasionally told me stories (ghost ones and otherwise), while my mom used to cut vegetables; I mean, light or no light, we had to eat, right?

After a few years, our problem eased a bit when my father bought a Honda generator. The procedure to switch it on was complicated: first, changeover from the mains; second, tweak half-a-dozen switches on the gen-set, and at a later stage (read: late at night), driving out in complete darkness, well after 10 PM, to get petrol from a station in Ambernath (about 8 kms away). In spite of all this, life was comfortable.
When the world outside is pitch black, two fans and tubes somehow manage to provide all the luxury in the world!

Oh, I forgot to mention the best part: the monsoons. In the beginning of June, when the skies darkened with the arrival of the South-West monsoon clouds, the generator would be primed up, readied for long hours of duty, the petrol can filled up; and as back up, candles and match-sticks were kept handy. Back in the days when we used the kerosene lamp (affectionately called the ‘hurricane lamp’, for its obvious utility in times of hurricanes), preparations weren’t so elaborate. Yes, we had to add the hand-fan to the inventory list. Otherwise, it was just the same!

For some reason I don’t know, the rain gods felt very generous at times. Along with rainfall (and power-cuts), we used to get a good dose of thunderstorms. The power lines were the first casualties, innocent citizens the next.
Our woes, sadly or otherwise, didn’t end with the monsoons. The transformer, once in a while, gave a little ‘boom’…the aftermath was usually crowds gathering around the transformer, everyone yelling out for some action, responsibility etcetera, amidst all that fiasco. Nothing like a blown transformer to promote solidarity in a housing society, I say!
But, if it was just your phase that blew, then you were on your own, and at the mercy of the technician. However, I do take the opportunity to say that some of them are fine people, the ones who’re in short supply.

Fast forward to the present, after years of living in darkness (more often, in the light powered by the inverter battery), I’m here writing about my woes. Not that I’m complaining or anything, in fact, I’m not! It’s just that, like all problems in out great nation, I have grown to live with it.

A couple of years ago, there was a lot of rejoicing among the people here when we heard that the Dhabol power-plant was reopening. Finally, we expected a concrete solution to our power problems. Sadly, by now, I think you know what happened…I mean, after knowing the tragedy of the Dhabol plant in the first place, I was not surprised to be disappointed.


Today, when I look at the newspapers talking about the Tata-Reliance tussle, tariff hikes and all that in the city, I give a cynical laugh. They’ll never know what it is like to be devoid of electricity, to live by the light of a kerosene lamp, to miss all your favourite TV programmes (even the re-runs), and how so many poor souls in hospitals have suffered. There are places in India where they have power for just two hours (or not at all); I don’t think I have a right to complain.
So, should I try to assert my consumer rights for equitable electricity? Maybe I should. But, where is that power going to come from? And more importantly, who’s gonna stand up for the kind of people I mentioned earlier. Power, water, health, they lack all the necessities we take for granted.
Sure, there are solutions; solar energy is one. But, I hardly think my neighbours are the kinds to afford it.

So, um, I think I should really stop writing; my laptop’s charge is dwindling. And I don’t expect the power to come in at least another two hours.
If nothing else, these long, dark hours have taught me patience, austerity and the value of enlightenment.
Or should I say ‘un-lightenment’…?


Do say: “Let there be light (some one go switch the damn generator on!)”
Don’t say: “So, are you guys planning to buy that air-conditioner this Diwali, or what?”